Entries for April, 2008
So I should probably talk about myself once in a while.
Like the traditional Ifugao dress says, the white stripe on my skirt says I'm the richest b*tch in the bunch. I hope it would prove to be true in a few years time.
I just took a trip alone to the Banaue mountains. Not literally, but, I joined in the trip without having to know anyone on the first night. Time to brush up on some "Friendship" skills. It was stress relieving somewhat, knowing a new set of people. And humbling that they were all calling me "Ate" (older sister).
And during that trip, I found something I wished I could pass on to my children:
I wished from the bottom of my heart that pollution would not come for this land in 20 years. Not until my children see it. Selfish, but what should I wish for instead, world peace?
I just turned 21 last March 26. Somebody should have pinched me, so that I could feel something. It was weird not having to feel any different on a birthday.
I could not celebrate because I had no money. My very generous father had given me loads of money but I spent it on a very guilty pleasure, buying kitchenware. 
Now I'm skin and bones (lie) and crawling for food (truth).
This whole time, I'd been agonizing about my thesis, and it seemed it would not end, but hey, it did. Seriously, all that emotional trouble for nothing. That's it?
[Gladiator Russel Crowe voice] Are you not entertained?! [/end Russel Crowe voice]
But it seemed they were not. I passed, but I can't graduate due to some long -a;osdkfjasd;lfjiasdopij rt;oafj;kj- story. I'm tired having to repeat it every single time. I should just write it in some website and link to it every time someone asks me "why?" Could everyone do me a favor and not ask? I'm in the type of mood where I could shoot people.
And because of all this uncertainty and confusion, I do not know what my future will be. I have my plans, and a serious shouting+nagging+talk about life once in a while from parents may be a good thing (although it still sucks to sit through it all).
It might be cliche but what can I really do but keep my head up?
When the fog lifts, I realize that Life is Beautiful, after all.
Okay, that was really cheesy.
Baboysai reads 36 titles of manga.
Baboysai watches Code Geass Season 01
Just FYI, I'm turning my cellphone off for a couple of days.
No, it won't buy me 100% peace, but at least that's one thing out of the way. I am currently feeling like Dorothy must have felt inside that twister-thing. Cows flailing, houses crashing to pieces, tractors speeding towards me, while spinning 300 miles per minute. Or whatever, I'm just making that speed up.
My sisters were telling me to better shape up or ship out. I said, I'm shipping out, aren't I? What's your problem, geez. I told them I knew exactly where I was heading this time around, it's just that I'm in a messy transition. Shifting from 1st gear to 4th gear isn't done in an instant, I tell you.
But turning my cellphone off, it's just brilliant. Why didn't it occur to me sooner?
So I'm still here, taking my sweet time to ease the pain, seriously thinking about how I can get a cup of Bo's coffee right at the next block when I don't have the money. When you don't know the answer, Bo's is the next best thing. (Bo's should pay me for advertising, but I get like probably 2 hits a day, so who cares?)
Speaking of ads, I thought maybe I could just flood my site with ads. And make some money, just so I could live another week trouble-free. Someone told me (no, I won't mention his name because that would be giving him so much credit) that life will never be easy, so why should I think so? Tch. I hate pessimistics. Just to quote from a great mangaka:
"Whatever path you choose, remember that sadness and sorrow don't have to exist".
And she's right. Why do people think bad times is a norm in life? It's not normal, see? If it was normal, why the heck do we feel so bad? It's not normal to encounter trouble and feel bad about it. It's not right, and it's not fair. (I'm turning into a kid super-hero, spouting words of wisdom to grade school kids.) That's why we should fight for our happiness! (Don't say I didn't warn you.)
So I'm fighting for my right, dammit!
Baboysai watches Clannad FTW
I was typing away in my not-so-little fangirl forum, talking to online buddies, feeding my selfish hobby needs, when my cousin buzzed me.
He was in a panic. He said my parents' panic was contagious. So apparently my parents were in a panic as well. My sister had taken her leave because she was on her way to check if I was still alive. Because they could not contact my cellphone.
So I finally switched on my phone, and contacted my parents, and told them with a straight face (even if they couldn't see my face) that I'm fine, and that I still have a paper to finish, blah blah blah. I called my sister and she told me I was crazy. I told them I didn't actually turn my phone off, it was put on airplane mode accidentally (lies). When I talked to my dad, he seemed quite not his usual self, he was surprisingly calm and didn't say much. I realized he was probably restraining himself, because my sister told me everything. She said when my dad called her up, he was wondering if I refused to talk to them because I was too pressured and depressed. Wait, what did they think I'd do, suicide or something? Close, but parents are parents.
Then I also found out that my other sister had been planning to give me a gift, a trip to Palawan, if I was all depressed, and it was too late to say I was because I told them I was fine and they were really overreacting. I asked if I could have a PS3 instead. "Are you kidding me? You're an idiot for pulling that trick on us, and everybody got involved."
I know it wasn't supposed to be funny but it really gave me a good laugh. And for some reason, I also cried.
Tch. Darn. That PS3, so close yet so far eh?
Baboysai watches Kanon 2006
peach_girl: let's play a game
tony86: what game?
peach_girl: 20 questions
tony86: what's that?
peach_girl: i ask, you answer truthfully
peach_girl: and vice versa
tony86: ok
peach_girl: what's your favorite color?
tony86: blue
tony86: yours is red
tony86: hehe
peach_girl: tch
peach_girl: question please?
tony86: wait
peach_girl: the game is supposed to be played fast ya know
tony86: I can't think
tony86: just a minute
peach_girl: ...
tony86: who is your hero?
peach_girl: that's easy.
peach_girl: me
tony86: duh
peach_girl: what's the worst food you ever ate?
tony86: kinilaw!!
peach_girl: what? that tastes so good!
tony86: eeewww!!
tony86: you know I don't like vinegar
peach_girl: (cooking for you will be a challenge, i bet)
tony86: who was your first kiss?
tony86: hehe just kidding
peach_girl: fuck you.
peach_girl: hahahaahaha
tony86: what is your favorite movie?
peach_girl: godfather
peach_girl: 2
tony86: i still haven't watched that
peach_girl: (i told you many times to watch that)
tony86: i know..
peach_girl: what's your favorite band?
tony86: killswitch (current fave)
tony86: what site do you visit most?
peach_girl: youtube
peach_girl: do you write a journal/blog/stories?
tony86: no
tony86: how many questions have been asked already?
peach_girl: 4
tony86: what is your most embarrassing moment?
peach_girl: when I lost the elections
peach_girl: how often do you trim your hair?
tony86: once a year, i think
tony86: what's your passion?
peach_girl: singing
peach_girl: where do you like to go?
tony86: jamaica
tony86: what's your favorite cdrink?
tony86: drink?
peach_girli: orange juice
tony86: how bout beer?
tony86: hehe
peach_girl: sometimes pineapple
peach_girl: do you like pineapple?
tony86: sick of it
tony86: what do you hate most about me?
peach_girl: that you are too much of an idealist
peach_girl: if you could turn back time, what would you do?
tony86: what made say that?
peach_girl: (is that an official question or a follow up?)
tony86: just a follow-up
tony86: that I'd be serious with my studies starting first year
peach_girl: hahaha that's funny
peach_girl: (you are idealistic about love)
tony86: pls elaborate
peach_girl: what do you really wanna do?
tony86: it's still my turn
tony86: what do u love about me
tony86: ?
tony86: hehehe
peach_girl: the way you think
peach_girl: is so easy to read sometimes
peach_girl: i'll just repeat my question: what do you really wanna do?
tony86: business
tony86: you?
peach_girl: (that's cheating, but i'll answer anyway)
peach_girl: so many things
peach_girl: do you believe in love at first sight?
tony86: no!
tony86: that's a lie
peach_girl: (i can't remember if you watched don juan de marco?)
tony86: nope
tony86: you told me you'd give me a copy
peach_girl: (really?)
tony86: what makes u blush?
peach_girl: when they tease me publicly about the guy who likes me
tony86: (which guy?)
peach_girl: how many kids would you like to have?
tony86: at least 3
peach_girl: (someone from the org, different from my boyfriend)
tony86: who would u like to spend the rest of your life with?
peach_girl: james
peach_girl: if you were given a chance to accomplish your greatest dream, but die afterwards, would you do it?
tony86: no way
peach_girl: (me too hahaha)
tony86: what's your favorite position? hehe
peach_girl: 77
tony86: spoon?
peach_girl: a variation of it
peach_girl: if i cooked you something with vinegar in it, would you try it?
tony86: as long as i don't taste the vinegar
tony86: like paksiw
tony86: who do u miss most among your friends?
peach_girl: right now? mae
peach_girl: and shiela
peach_girl: (btw, did you know about shiela getting married???)
peach_girl: would you try a threesome? or have you already done it?
tony86: ya i've heard
tony86: sure!!! that's my greatest fantasy!
tony86: haha
tony86: are you content?
peach_girl: hell no
peach_girl: i'm 21, hello
peach_girl: realistically speaking, how much would you have to earn per month until you can say you're "okay"?
tony86: 30,000
tony86: do u miss me?
peach_girl: a bit
peach_girl: would you watch a movie with me?
tony86: why not
tony86: how many questions already?
peach_girl: (btw, do you know that i will never know what the complete story of moment to remember is?)
peach_girl: 16
tony86: moment to remember?
peach_girl: yep
peach_girl: wait
peach_girl: walk to remember pala
peach_girl: hahahaah
tony86: hahaha
tony86: the girl died
peach_girl: yeah i know that
peach_girl: but we got in late didn't we?
peach_girl: and I never tried to know what the story was
peach_girl: and i guess i won't
peach_girl: it's consigned to oblivion
tony86: you could have watched the dvd you know
peach_girl: (your turn to ask)
tony86: you made me forget my question!
peach_girl: ...
tony86: nevermind
fernz: uhmm..
peach_girl: hurry
peach_girl: i'm beginning to forget my question too
tony86: what do u miss about me?
tony86: hehe
peach_girl: your hand (-_-) what an egotistic question
peach_girl: how does my name appear in your ym list?
tony86: tiffany
tony86: sometimes peach_girl
peach_girl: (17)
tony86: how often do u spend time with ur boyfriend?
peach_girl: average of 23 hours a day
tony86: good for you
peach_girl: how many instruments do you play now?
tony86: just the guitar
peach_girl: (18)
tony86: what's your favorite song?
peach_girl: take a bow
peach_girl: why do you like blue?
peach_girl: (you get to ask the last question... -_-)
tony86: it's boyish
tony86: have u completely forgiven me?
peach_girl: yes
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