Entries for May, 2007
I'm actually quite amazed that I was still able to laugh occasionally, or sleep rather well, despite the fact that I had been out of touch of the internet for almost three weeks now.
Rac says, "Musta na ang buhay karpintero?" (How's life being a carpenter?)
Ladies and gentlemen, if you can't connect, it's because I haven't told you.
I recently moved out of the condo unit I was staying, mainly because my sister's leaving, and as a side note, getting married. The condo was too big and expensive for one person to maintain (unless he/she is far richer than I), that I had to look for a smaller place that I could afford on my own. Wait, strike that out. That my father could afford for me. 
I found a great place. Just a few changes that I thought were minor. By this time I've swallowed what my dad told me when I was a kid: "People die because of wrong assumptions" (which when I heard was later used in a song, I wondered if my dad thought it on his own or he got it from somebody else. Must be a famous saying, I figured) I repeat, just a FEW changes that I THOUGHT WERE MINOR. 
I'm not going to rant here. I mean, who cares about rants when they know nothing about it? Instead, being a writer that aims to contribute to society, I'd like to share a realization that you might actually apply in your lives sooner or later too.
I had stated in an entry before about responsibility. That was responsibility in situations where someone cute and tiny is holding your hand. This is a different kind of responsibility. The kind when you're alone, and you have all these bills to take care of. Not to mention applications of different kinds, putting your name and address in forms for a lot of stuff. I didn't care about these before. Someone took care of the papers, and I just lived off them. One day I was living off my sister, the next- BAM! I'm in a new environment, hundreds of stuff to think of and actually carry out, and ALONE. 
Not to mention the little pressures here and there from the usual life. One time, I actually broke down and cried.
Baboysai: Waaaah I hate this! I don't want this anymore! I wanna go back to the way things were!
Boyfriend: Er...
However, amidst all the chaos and being disconnected from the world wide web for all this time, I had come to appreciate the stillness of the night and the morning sunshine. The place had to do a large bit of it, but I actually had "time for myself" even with all the bills to think of. Wait- that's not what I meant- I'll clarify- I said "time FOR myself", not "time WITH myself".
Ahem.
So for people still living with their parents, or living with other people who do the real stuff for you, living on your own is really a big step forward. Duh.
I don't know if it's just me or if it's for everybody, but seeing the bare place, I just wanted to work it up. And I have this bad habit of not really being content until I get it down to the last detail. But since it was my own place, I did have the freedom to design the place the way I really wanted.
When all transactions are complete, when all construction is done, when everything's in place, I think I deserve an award.
Baboysai moves to a new phase in life: the one where she gets to f*ck all around the house.
Or something. 
Baboysai reads bobo books
Little by little, the boxes disappeared. Things slowly set in place.
"You're bringing this place together." When a friend told me that, I was really happy. After almost a month of hard work and OC-ness, I could finally sleep well. I have cable, my PC was connected, and I could finally cook again. I did it while practicing chorale. And we won 2nd place. It's all good.
My sister arrived about two weeks ago. She still had to stay for a couple more months. I really had no more money left. Zero. We went to buy more stuff for the place, and I for a moment, had time not to think about money. And I missed that feeling, of being under someone's wing and not having to think of anything for a while. Of course when the shopping ended, everything sank in again.
The chorale competition was last night. The place looks great now. I didn't know there was something bigger than the word "everything". Because everything is already looming above me, and there are still more deadlines that suddenly sprang back after being pushed for too long. A few more weeks and school will start again.
It's all good.
Now I'm not going to make excuses. All I've been watching are reruns. I've been rereading my old comic collection. I've been cleaning the house everyday because of visitors. I've been doing some effing schoolwork during the summer. I'm a loser.
However, I would like to share what I've been busy with all summer. Aside from the non-excuses made above.
I happen to be very proud of my executive committee, the committee for the UP Architecture Forum (/Arkiforum/AF) 2007. I, being a passionate member of our org, have been given the best opportunity to realize my vision for the org by having been elected as president/chairperson (whatever is politically correct). And I have been blessed to be with a very responsible team of born leaders. (It's not supposed to be funny, this "born leader" thing, but it's an in-joke, so I'm laughing).
We have great plans for the schoolyear, as much as our term would allow us, and I'm really feeling that we're going to make it. I'm being boring so this part of the entry ends right here.
So anyway, on to more general stuff, my place being the way it is, is always open. I'm thinking of putting up a toll gate in the near future. Like today. It's a joke, but maybe not. So many friends have come here, bringing their own drinks and sharing it with me, pouring out their concerns and problems, and sometimes we just really talk about people. We like that, it's a hobby.
The things that I've learned from different people have made me realize that human beings are really interesting. But the problem with the Philippines is the shrink culture. We're getting more and more depressed, what with the increasing population, poverty, (I'm being sensational but so are Americans). We need to flash out some kind of symbol that screams "SUPER SHRINK!" to wipe all our troubles away.
Speaking of open house, a bird just came in through the window, tried to get out the same way but bonked its head. I watched it for 23 seconds or something. Apparently it didn't enjoy being watched.
With this kind of lifestyle I'm leading, busy with org matters, at the same time entertaining lost wanderers until the wee hours of the morning with gin or wine in hand, I'm looking forward to one helluva year. Yeah.
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